And I'm still bleeding.
What the fuck?
That's all.
Showing posts with label hormones. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hormones. Show all posts
Friday, November 21, 2014
Friday, August 16, 2013
Up and Down
We are getting somewhere with the weaning. Pretty much down to twice per day (either after daycare or before bed and then first thing in the morning); as he can also have bottles at these times, I do not see it being incredibly difficult to stop those nursing sessions. I am somewhat ambivalent. I would like my breasts back. I would like to never look at a nursing bra again (mostly I'm not, although I should probably buy some bra that actually fits). But Tiny Boy is one of those kids who generally doesn't snuggle if he's not being nursed, and I don't want to give up the snuggles.
I am having some mood swings and I really wonder how much it might be hormonal, given that I basically went from 2.5 years of fertility drugs to another 2.5 years of pregnancy + nursing + really crappy sleep. (Yes, holy fuck, this journey started 5 years ago.) I have an appointment with my therapist in a couple weeks, and I think we might talk about that. Mostly I'm fine, but I can get scattered and overwhelmed very easily and then I'm in a funk.
And oh my goodness, I know in the big picture my life is GOOD. Let's take stock: fertility treatment done (check), the number of kids I always wanted (check), tenure (check), a job I mostly like (check), a house in a good community (check), good friends (check), family support (if we're not counting my sister, check).
So it's hormones, right? It's wild swings of prolactin and progesterone and all that stuff, right?
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Things are mostly better with the sleeping (although there was a lot of crying and holding around 1:00 in the morning for some unclear reason, and he really wasn't going for a quick bottle and re-tuck routine, but at least we're mostly sleeping until 7:00 or later (!!!!!!) so yeah, sleep is good as long as I accept that I will be waking up until we get a house so large I can have a bedroom in a completely separate wing from my kids (ha!)).
And now I need to go to LG's drama camp performance. And remember to bring a camera, as I am one of those bad mothers who mostly forgets a camera because I'd rather WATCH the performance than have it on video. But I digress...
I am having some mood swings and I really wonder how much it might be hormonal, given that I basically went from 2.5 years of fertility drugs to another 2.5 years of pregnancy + nursing + really crappy sleep. (Yes, holy fuck, this journey started 5 years ago.) I have an appointment with my therapist in a couple weeks, and I think we might talk about that. Mostly I'm fine, but I can get scattered and overwhelmed very easily and then I'm in a funk.
And oh my goodness, I know in the big picture my life is GOOD. Let's take stock: fertility treatment done (check), the number of kids I always wanted (check), tenure (check), a job I mostly like (check), a house in a good community (check), good friends (check), family support (if we're not counting my sister, check).
So it's hormones, right? It's wild swings of prolactin and progesterone and all that stuff, right?
*
Things are mostly better with the sleeping (although there was a lot of crying and holding around 1:00 in the morning for some unclear reason, and he really wasn't going for a quick bottle and re-tuck routine, but at least we're mostly sleeping until 7:00 or later (!!!!!!) so yeah, sleep is good as long as I accept that I will be waking up until we get a house so large I can have a bedroom in a completely separate wing from my kids (ha!)).
And now I need to go to LG's drama camp performance. And remember to bring a camera, as I am one of those bad mothers who mostly forgets a camera because I'd rather WATCH the performance than have it on video. But I digress...
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