When LG was born, I was too caught up in the moment of being a new mom to document her early months with a scrapbook, or even send out birth announcements (I mean, everyone I cared about already knew, and more distant relatives my mother informed). This week I made a birth announcement card for Tiny Boy and plan to send it out to everyone I can think of. Seems like an important thing to do to mark the "end" of this journey, even to people who didn't know there was a journey lasting beyond 37 weeks of gestation. In my more passive-aggressive moments, I've considered sending it to the acupuncturist who told me I didn't need to use donor eggs (but did, apparently, need to starve myself in order to conceive) as well as Dr. Evil, who probably wouldn't even remember me from two appointments more than 3 years ago.
In a more generous mood, today I put a couple snapshots in an envelope with a thank you note to Nurse of the Everchanging Nickname and her cohort. Although they did many stupid things along the way (forget to order Ganirelix much?) they also came through for me, and their role in Tiny Boy's existence should not go unacknowledged. It occurred to me that it was three years ago today (the Thursday of finals week, at least) that I had my initial consult with Dr. Gorgeous. It's astonishing how different my life is now, and equally astonishing that it took three years to get here.
Right now I've got Tiny Boy sleeping strapped to my chest, a quiet house, and a cup of tea. I really couldn't ask for anything more. The next phase, it seems, will be accepting that I finally have the life I want, instead of bemoaning the one I don't.
I imagine it's got to be an adjustment, finding yourself living the life you wanted. A good adjustment, but still a steep learning curve.
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yea, that transition is a weird one. I am so happy for you. Congratulations on getting the birth announcements organized and mailed off! I think those rituals are really important, although I must confess that I didn't do them for M. For some reason I was plagued with a ridiculous sense that my having a baby wasn't real enough to do things like a baby shower or formal announcement. I wish I hadn't felt that way, and I am way better now at celebrating M more openly with friends and family.
ReplyDeleteI am very impressed that you got your announcements sent out. Congratulations for everything that you have had to go through to get your family - I know it has not been easy.
ReplyDeletewhat a beautiful image of you. Funy ... we never did announcements for either of our kids ... part of me wishes we did, but I feel like the part that you're loving right now is the more important part, anyway.
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