It's Tuesday, and I haven't yet made my to do list for the week. It pretty much boils down to (1) write, (2) keep my kids alive, (3) move forward with the home repair. Of course these are all multi-part projects, with many moving parts. There's a lot that's not getting done. I'm spending a lot of time worrying about LG, for reasons I'd rather not talk about, even here. I have moments of complete paralysis. I'm also making some choices about things I'm not doing, including
- planting annuals (I like the way they look, but that's one more thing to maintain)
- any yard work in my backyard (it's completely out of control, and I need to hire someone to do big things, so I'll end up spending $1000 or so to weed and re-mulch the whole thing [there's no grass]; once I made that decision it seems pretty obvious that I'm not being charged per weed, so why bother doing anything right now)
- going to LG's away softball games (I go to the home games)
- giving a shit about how much TV Tiny Boy watches (to a point)
I'm acknowledging that I have a finite amount of time and energy. I'm trying to not beat myself up about what's not getting done and focusing on what is.
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I'm also still experimenting with mixing up writing times/places. I managed to produce about 500 words in my actual office on campus, but it was painful, and I don't really want to do that anymore. I also ran into my department chair, and now she wants to have a talk. Oy.
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