Five years ago, almost exactly, was the DARK DAY when I thought I wasn't going to get tenure and I thought I wasn't going to have a Tiny Boy.
I wasn't really thinking about this except in a vague, wow-I-have-a-four-year-old sort of way.
But.
Yesterday I had a massage (this was scheduled months ago, actually) to work on some chronic neck/shoulder stuff. I've had a migraine off and on for the past week, and she was working on something at the base of my skull and I just started crying. Sobbing, actually. Never even registered an emotional response like "I'm sad"....just a purely physical thing.
And then last night I had a whacked-out dream about meeting a younger version of Dr. Gorgeous, and then Tiny Boy woke me up at 5:15 and that was the end of that.
But the combo of the massage and the dream says something is going on in my head. Not sure what, really... if I figure it out, I'll let you know!
I wasn't really thinking about this except in a vague, wow-I-have-a-four-year-old sort of way.
But.
Yesterday I had a massage (this was scheduled months ago, actually) to work on some chronic neck/shoulder stuff. I've had a migraine off and on for the past week, and she was working on something at the base of my skull and I just started crying. Sobbing, actually. Never even registered an emotional response like "I'm sad"....just a purely physical thing.
And then last night I had a whacked-out dream about meeting a younger version of Dr. Gorgeous, and then Tiny Boy woke me up at 5:15 and that was the end of that.
But the combo of the massage and the dream says something is going on in my head. Not sure what, really... if I figure it out, I'll let you know!
Wow, that sounds like an intense experience with the massage. It makes me want to get a massage, actually! Sending good thoughts... anniversaries can trigger things I think.
ReplyDeleteYeah, it was pretty wild! Never had an experience like that before.
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