A Little Bit Pregnant

So remember yesterday when I said that Clear Blue (+/-) was anything but clear? Turns out I'm not entirely crazy. Turns out, actually, that I'm just a little bit pregnant.

I'm not happy. I'm shocked. And scared.

My first thought? I hope it's not ectopic. My second? Well, I've never had a chemical pregnancy, so I guess it's my turn. My third? Let this baby be okay. My fourth? This messes up my plans for next cycle. My fifth? What if I ovulated a day later than my RE thinks (I felt ovulation pain a good 30+ hours after my IUI)? Then this number is slightly less bad than it is right now.

A pathetic 17 (at 12dpo).

With my miscarriage, which was technially a "blighted ovum" that dragged on until 11.5 weeks, it was 78 (at 14dpo).

With LG, at 13-14dpo, it was 188.

I just don't see how this can have a good outcome.