I've lost the zen. I wouldn't say I'm a nervous wreck, but I'm definitely off-kilter. Tenure anxiety. Reproductive anxiety. I'm only two days into this wait, and already I'm coming up with plans for Dr. Gorgeous (up my estrogen dose? halve my follistim dose?).
I'm waiting. I'm tired of waiting. This baby project has dragged on already a year longer than my worst case scenario. The tenure thing? Well, if I'd stayed at my other job I would have had it a few years ago. Now not only do I not have it, I'm not sure I'm going to get it.
I'm waiting. Where the hell is my good thing?
I have zero patience and hate hate hate the waiting thing too. At least you are on the tenure track - others of us are contract faculty for at least the near future (grass is always greener, eh?)
ReplyDeleteHere's to a tenure vote and a BFP!