Small Good Things

1. The massage therapy place did indeed have an opening at 4:00. With the most fantastic massage therapist. And now I am all slathered in lavender oil and more relaxed than I've been probably in about 2.5 years, which is only a slight exaggeration. I was thinking about going to see Acu #1 before transfer, but forget that. This is SO much better.
2. I'm not sure if it's the massage or the fioricet or both, but the lupron headache is gone for the moment. I'm up to 2 estrace a day (and will get to 3 in the next few days) so I'm hoping that will be the end of that.
3. Although it took multiple phone calls to actually get this information, my donor has 30 antral follicles and is starting stims today. 30. 30. 30. Really doesn't compare to my 7-12 now does it?
4. LG is in a much better mood. And when I picked her up, instead of requesting more time, she just said ok, let's go and grabbed my hand with a smile. I'll take that over recalcitrance any day.
5. I realized I don't really care about my conference paper. I mean, I'm not worried about embarrassing myself even if it is unpolished. Because it's a legitimate struggle with ideas, I'm on a panel with two people I care about who care about me (remember Dr. Boy?) and with whom I can have a good intellectual conversation, and, damn, I'm almost something other than a nervous assistant professor.