So Much for Intuition and Leaps of Faith

Here's what didn't work:

• Going ahead with a doctor disapproved cycle because it worked when I conceived LG;
• Using up the last 3 vials of LG's donor;
• Giving the staff baked goods;
• Donating to Fertility Socks;
• Spite (really, for about a day, I wanted to get pregnant just to tell Dr. Gorgeous I told you so);
• Believing that breast fullness + a wicked high temperature + cramping must = positive;
• Thinking that a due date of my mother's birthday was predestined to work

So for IUI #13, which I've decided has to be lucky, Dr. Gorgeous is getting what I consider to be crazy aggressive, which under the influence of vodka (yes, it's vodka night here in Chez Gwinne!) seems pretty darn good to me. That would be Femara cd 2-6 and *200* IU Follistim cd 6-9. I need to ask her next week when I see her what exactly she hopes that much Follistim will do, because I'm thinking that without Ganirelix, I'm either going to ovulate early or end up with 4 follicles. And maybe that's what we're going for... but I just want to make sure we're on the same page.

Even the nurse sounded so honestly sad for me tonight. Sigh.

I think I'll drink some more vodka and pomegranate juice (thank you, LG, for going to sleep!!!), watch some TV, and pick up the shattered pieces of my life in the morning.