Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Game Over

I haven't gotten the official call from Dr. G, but I just called the local lab to find out my results.

367

Fuck.


Update at 8:17: My doctor the optimist thinks this might still turn out okay. She's standing by her two-to-one theory. I don't buy it. But I'm not self-medicating with valium tonight either. And really, I could not have had a shittier day, for other reasons beyond what I'm taking to be an impending loss.
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  1. LoreleiMarch 23, 2011 at 1:37 PM

    NOOOO!! I'm so sorry. I know I don't post much on your blog, but I check in daily to see what's happening. I just can't believe this, I really hoped the numbers were just a fluke.

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  2. AnonymousMarch 23, 2011 at 1:38 PM

    Oh god, no. Gwinne, I am so sorry. So very sorry. Ah shit. AH SHIT!

    I'm so sorry.

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  3. The Baby Chase ProjectMarch 23, 2011 at 2:01 PM

    Oh no!!! I am crying for you right now. Gwinne, I don't want this to happen to you.

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  4. MeAndBabyMarch 23, 2011 at 2:17 PM

    Fuck is right. My sentiments exactly. I'm so sorry. Here's hoping that number is some crazy mistake.

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  5. NMarch 23, 2011 at 2:34 PM

    Crap. Crap crap crap.

    Hoping it was some sort of mistake, and holding on to hope. <3

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  6. RebeccaMarch 23, 2011 at 2:44 PM

    Ah. Shit. I've been checking in every day. And I'm really hoping this is some sort of mix up. Dammit.

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  7. QuiltingChaosMarch 23, 2011 at 4:41 PM

    there are no words

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  8. bunintheovenplease!March 23, 2011 at 5:05 PM

    No no no. So sorry for you.

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  9. HeidiMarch 23, 2011 at 8:34 PM

    Aw, fuckety fuck.

    But I have to say that even before your update, I was doing the numbers as I thought through the possibility that your doctor ended up raising. I mean, if the initial strong positive was followed by the loss of a twin, wouldn't a rise in bhcg for one, countered by a gradually lowering bhcg for the other, result in a graph pretty much like the one you're looking at? Have you plotted this out to see if it's even remotely possible?

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  10. inBetweenMarch 23, 2011 at 9:35 PM

    Ah shit. I have my fingers crossed that the optimistic view is correct and this little embryo is just taking you on an unnecessary emotional rollercoaster ride.

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  11. MicheleMarch 23, 2011 at 9:44 PM

    (((hugs)))

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  12. Mad HatterMarch 23, 2011 at 10:21 PM

    So sorry and hoping it goes the other way.
    Love,
    Maddy

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  13. AnonymousMarch 24, 2011 at 1:29 AM

    My heart is hurting for you - I'm so sorry. I am hoping hard that Dr. G's optimism is on track.
    xo

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  14. niobeMarch 24, 2011 at 10:40 AM

    Hoping for the best case scenario. But thinking that this sucks more than I can say.

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  15. Kristen {www.buckupbuttercup.net}March 24, 2011 at 7:18 PM

    So sorry you are having to deal with this. Hoping your doctor's theory is right...

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  16. DresdenMarch 24, 2011 at 10:53 PM

    thinking of you - and hoping lots and lots. Beta hell is absolutely the worst. ((hugs))

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